‘Homesick for a place that no longer exists…’: Celina Jaitly shares emotional Holi reflection

ACtor Celina Jaitly shared an emotional reflexion on societal media a daylight after Holi, telling wherefore the festival that once brought colour and joy now feels painfully different. While many in the film industry celebrated the festival with lively gatherings and family festivities, Celina spent the day looking back at memories. The actor spoke candidly about how much her life has changed since then.In a deeply personal note, she wrote, “Homesick for a Place That No Longer Exists. Who do you become when you have lived outside your country as long as you lived in your parents’ home growing up?”Reflecting on life spent between countries and cultures, she described the lingering sense of displacement that followed years abroad. “You leave family, friends, work, & culture behind, slowly embracing the positives of a new land. Yet, after a while, you feel a loss. You realize you integrated all you could, but that essence… it’s difficult to integrate in a land where you were not born,” she wrote. Celina, who has lived in Austria for several years, spoke about how home once meant being surrounded by loved ones. “Home was only where my mother’s warmth, & my father & brother’s strong love surrounded me. With them gone, strangers abroad, strangers back home, where do I find that home?” she added.The actor also reflected on the loss of her parents and the emotional weight it carries. “Sometimes we don’t want to heal, because the pain is the last link we have to what we’ve lost,” she wrote, adding that she often feels unsure about where she truly belongs.Recalling last year's Holi celebrationsIn an earlier post, Jaitly had also recalled last year’s Holi celebrations with her children. “Last Year I Waited With Holi Colours On My Face For My Boys To Return From School… This image is from last year’s Holi….I had no idea that by the next Holi I would lose all the brilliant colours of my life, and everything would suddenly turn black & white,” she wrote.She also shared that celebrating Indian festivals abroad had often been a quiet affair. “In my marriage, Indian festivals were usually very quiet, and no real effort was made to understand how much they meant to me. So it often fell upon me to introduce the boys to our festivals, our culture & our traditions in my own small ways.” About Celina Jaitly's ongoing case In 2025, Jaitly filed a domestic violence case against her husband, Peter Haag. The actor sought ₹50 crore in compensation for loss of earnings and also requested custody of their children. She has alleged severe emotional, physical, sexual and verbal abuse, which forced her to leave her home in Austria and return to India. According to her claims, the children are currently living with Haag in Austria as the legal proceedings continue.